Well, I just did something very daunting. I applied to be the Parent Council president at Boy's school. This is a new adventure. It's not an official title, but since no one else has applied, unless NO ONE votes for me, I will be the president next year. Voting starts tomorrow.
Am I crazy? Yes, I must be.
To be honest, I wouldn't have had the courage to apply before I made the decision to venture out.
Nothing Ventured. Nothing Gained.
Breathe Deeply. . .
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
Back to School?
I just got back from substitute teaching again at the Boy's school. There are days like today that I want to renew my teaching certificate and go back to work full-time. And then I think about all that it entails and how it makes me a little nervous. I wonder what I would do if Boy got sick and had to stay home. I don't have any family nearby, and so I know I would need to take a sick day. Good thing that Boy doesn't get sick very often! The other problems I think of are the fact that since we'd be a dual income family with only one child, then we'd probably end up paying more taxes. Which is okay, I guess, if you know to expect that. The benefits would be that I would get to teach again, we'd be able to pay off our debt A LOT sooner, and I'd be in Boy's school.
It's something I really have to think about, though, but I do love kids, and I do love to teach!
It's something I really have to think about, though, but I do love kids, and I do love to teach!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Bucket List
I have done some venturing lately, but I don't care to talk about it on this blog because it has to do with adoption. To be honest, I think I want to be done with adoption talk on this blog for now. I've talked about it plenty on another blog. Maybe one day I'll come back to it, but honestly, I've been caught up in adoption for so long that I'm done with the mean people out there, and I know where I stand, and my friends know where I stand; and personally, some random stranger doesn't need to care about my position. Okay, rant/explanation over.
Now, the real reason for this post. I've decided that I need motivation to venture out. I need goals. I need goals that lead me to really learn how to LIVE life. So, I think I need a bucket list. I used to think that they were dumb, that a bucket list was just one long disappointment list. However, if there's one thing I'm learning, it's that if I want to do something adventurous, I need to write it down - admit that I want to do it. So, on the side of my blog, I'm going to start a running bucket list. As I get ideas and think about things I would love to do one day, I'll add them on my list. I hope to make these goals attainable, and I really hope that as I cross them off, I will take pictures and make blog posts out of them. I want these goals to be things that I can do without them being something for which I have to depend upon somebody (i.e., adoption and winning the lottery will not be on that bucket list).
So, here's to gaining focus!
Oh, and I'm curious, what's on your bucket list?
Now, the real reason for this post. I've decided that I need motivation to venture out. I need goals. I need goals that lead me to really learn how to LIVE life. So, I think I need a bucket list. I used to think that they were dumb, that a bucket list was just one long disappointment list. However, if there's one thing I'm learning, it's that if I want to do something adventurous, I need to write it down - admit that I want to do it. So, on the side of my blog, I'm going to start a running bucket list. As I get ideas and think about things I would love to do one day, I'll add them on my list. I hope to make these goals attainable, and I really hope that as I cross them off, I will take pictures and make blog posts out of them. I want these goals to be things that I can do without them being something for which I have to depend upon somebody (i.e., adoption and winning the lottery will not be on that bucket list).
So, here's to gaining focus!
Oh, and I'm curious, what's on your bucket list?
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Anonymous
I did something I never thought I would yesterday. I posted anonymously on a blog. Okay, yes, you're thinking "Uh, why is that weird, you're already writing this blog under a pseudonym?" Well, I vowed early on that I would always post under a name because I can't stand the anonymous label. I find in the blogging world it's the free ticket to cruelty and carte blanche on insults. I've seen so many people hurt and so many people become ugly because of the anonymous label.
So, why did I post anonymously? I posted a comment on an adoption blog, more specifically, a blog written by an adoptee who seems to be anti-adoption in most cases. Her readers have called me "delusional" based on a comment I made on a post written by a birth mother. You see, I believe that God can be in adoption - that many times His hand is in adoption. Many people affected by adoption call that an excuse, a delusion. I've been reading this blog a lot more lately, although I swore I wouldn't because of the negative spin on adoption and the side-swiping attacks I've seen on hopeful adoptive parents and young birth mothers who've placed, especially birth mothers who share my religious beliefs. One of the most recent posts was about a very offensive comment written by an anonymous commenter on a birth mother's blog about grief. I have strong opinions about this, and I was very touched by the blog author's post, and since I didn't need all kinds of negative feedback on my family blog for being a hopeful adoptive parent, I wrote the comment anonymously. It wasn't until this morning that I realized that I could have written under this same pseudonym.
Anyway, the blog author wrote back in the comments that she'd like me to be a guest blogger on her blog, and honestly, that terrifies me. I am a hopeful adoptive parent, and my opinion that adoption can be very positive is not going to change. I have very opposing views to this author in regards to many aspects, and yet there are many of my views and opinions that have changed dramatically in part because of her blog and many like hers.
Right now I know I owe her a reply to her offer, and she directed me to her personal email. I will write her back eventually. I have to get my bearings. This is yet another venture that I'm not sure how it will turn out, and believe me when I say that I will be praying over how to proceed from here on out because the last thing I need is for this to blow up in my face. And the question? What will be gained from this venture? Will it be negative or positive? I'm not sure I can handle putting my heart out there and getting egg on my face because I chose to accept her offer. And yet, could I let the aching adoption world see that there are hopeful adoptive parents who are good, kind, and really do try to understand all the loss and that we don't all take adoption and everything involved for granted? Deep breath.
"Nothing Ventured, nothing gained."
So, why did I post anonymously? I posted a comment on an adoption blog, more specifically, a blog written by an adoptee who seems to be anti-adoption in most cases. Her readers have called me "delusional" based on a comment I made on a post written by a birth mother. You see, I believe that God can be in adoption - that many times His hand is in adoption. Many people affected by adoption call that an excuse, a delusion. I've been reading this blog a lot more lately, although I swore I wouldn't because of the negative spin on adoption and the side-swiping attacks I've seen on hopeful adoptive parents and young birth mothers who've placed, especially birth mothers who share my religious beliefs. One of the most recent posts was about a very offensive comment written by an anonymous commenter on a birth mother's blog about grief. I have strong opinions about this, and I was very touched by the blog author's post, and since I didn't need all kinds of negative feedback on my family blog for being a hopeful adoptive parent, I wrote the comment anonymously. It wasn't until this morning that I realized that I could have written under this same pseudonym.
Anyway, the blog author wrote back in the comments that she'd like me to be a guest blogger on her blog, and honestly, that terrifies me. I am a hopeful adoptive parent, and my opinion that adoption can be very positive is not going to change. I have very opposing views to this author in regards to many aspects, and yet there are many of my views and opinions that have changed dramatically in part because of her blog and many like hers.
Right now I know I owe her a reply to her offer, and she directed me to her personal email. I will write her back eventually. I have to get my bearings. This is yet another venture that I'm not sure how it will turn out, and believe me when I say that I will be praying over how to proceed from here on out because the last thing I need is for this to blow up in my face. And the question? What will be gained from this venture? Will it be negative or positive? I'm not sure I can handle putting my heart out there and getting egg on my face because I chose to accept her offer. And yet, could I let the aching adoption world see that there are hopeful adoptive parents who are good, kind, and really do try to understand all the loss and that we don't all take adoption and everything involved for granted? Deep breath.
"Nothing Ventured, nothing gained."
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